Bridging Time & Company Bugs

Kianna's gone home. Luke is back to school. Life is once again has settled down to a slow hum and I enjoy it.

The kids were miraculous to be around. They are beautiful human beings and I was honored to be able to care for them and have them in my life for our yearly visit. Many times during our summer together it dawned on me that I am probably learning more from them than they from me.

I watched Luke and Kianna, play, fight, laugh, cry, struggle for control, and fall down exhausted at the end of the day asking for a back rub or a hug as they drifted off to sleep, and it felt like I was seeing the whole story of humanity played out before my eyes, and it gave me a greater perspective of my own sibling rivalries.

My niece is like my brother as a child...all playful innocence, wilyness, and exuberence. It was impossible not to love her, and somehow, I noticed the more Ioved my brother's child, the more I loved him. She became like a bridge over the oceans of times past, and her presence in my life has started to rewrite the story of my own childhood with a new and peaceful perspective.
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Walking to the car the other day picking up Luke from Kindergarten he says to me, "MOM! You know what I WANT? A Sunday.....er no,....a sunday, no..oh maybe it's a monday. Yah! MOM! Can I have a Monday? You know from Macdonnals?

Today dropping him off at school he found a little beetle on the sidewalk and he got so excited. I reminded him it was a 'company' bug the same kind Grandma Joy says she finds at her house everytime they have company. Talking quietly as to not disturb his little friend, he gently held it in his hand as we walked to his classroom. I told him he could take it in to show his friends.
He said, "No, I want him to be free in nature......with his mom and dad."

"Wings Of Forgiveness"

I just want you to know
After everything that we've been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
That I still love you:

Had to go
Across the water
Just to find
What was here in my heart all along
Spend so much time
Trying to be right
That I was dead wrong

If Nelson Mandela can forgive his oppressors
Surely I can forgive you for your passion

You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

Had to run
To the arms of curiosity
Just to find
What was here in my life all along
I had found that the art of simplicity
Simply means making peace of your complexity

If Gandhi can forgive persecution
Surely you can forgive me for being so petty

I'm only human
Let's shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

I've searched for romance
Flowers and affection
What I found is a lesson
Of what love really is
Found the game of love is
Not about how much you can take
In fact authentic love is about
How much you can give

After everything that we've been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I forgive you
(thank you for teaching how to give)
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I'm better cuz you taught me how to give

I took a swim
In the sea of guilt and misery
To find myself in an island
In the middle of nowhere
In my solitude
I asked to know the highest truth
And what I was told
Is to let own self be true

If Jesus can forgive crucifixion
Surely we can survive and find resolution

Let's keep it moving
Let's shake free this gravity of resentment
And fly high, and fly high
You're only human
Let's shake free this gravity of judgment
And fly high, and fly high
Let's keep it moving
Let's shake free this gravity of commitment
And fly high on the wings of forgiveness

After everything that we've been through
I just want you to know
That I still love you
I want you to know
That I still love you
And I wanna let you know how much you changed my life
I wanna let you know you taught me how to fly
And I wrote this song to tell you this
I'm better cuz you taught me how to give

I still love you
I want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
(And I always will love you)
And I wanna let you know
I forgive you
I wanna let you know
That I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
I just want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
Want you to know
I still love you
And I wanna let you know
I forgive you
I wanna let you know
I still love you